I have been reading The Life and Diary of David Brainerd, Edited by Jonathan Edwards by Philip E. Howard, Jr.
In one diary entry, he wrote the following:
“Exceedingly depressed in spirit; it cuts and wounds my heart to think how much self-exaltation, spiritual pride, and warmth of temper, I have formerly had intermingled with my endeavors to promote God’s work. Sometimes I long to lie down at the feet of the opposers and confess what a poor imperfect creature I have been, and still am. Oh, the Lord forgive me and make me for the future wise as a serpent, and harmless as a dove! Afterwards enjoyed considerable comfort and delight of soul.” (Tuesday, August 17)
Focus on the first sentence. Brainerd considered that in his endeavors to promote God’s work, he had intermingled self-exaltation, spiritual pride, and warmth of temper. He recognized in his own heart, his sins and shortcomings and pled with God to forgive him. Every servant of God should take heed, and understand biblically how to die to self.
Luke 9:23 If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. Jesus
Galatians 5:24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.
Colossians 3:3 For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.
Chief Shepherd, may our lives be surrendered to You. By the power of the indwelling Holy Spirit, reveal any self-exaltation, spiritual pride, or anger, which would hinder our service to You. Protect us from our spiritual enemy who wants to sift us like wheat. Help us to walk in the way in honor of You.